Ready for a Parrrrrrtyyyy

So tomorrow is my baby girl Irelyn's first Birthday, I made her a Big top cupcake for herself and cupcakes for everyone else. I was shocked that it came out so good. I follows all the tips I seen online like spraying the molds with Pam but then I also just did a light dusting of flour, usually I use the pam with the flour in it for baking but I ran out. I also did the top for 35 mins then the other was done within 10 mins. I used a confetti cake so the bottom could be uniced and she won't be on sugar overload. I also made a filling with cool whip and sliced banana and used a whipped strawberry frosting. After I took it out of the oven I let it sit for 10 mins then put it in the freezer for 30 mins and took it out and got decorating, now it is finished and back in the fridge.
I have been baking for 4 hours! But I am finally done, now it is time for me to make some baked ziti and garlic bread yum!
I had a long week, I got some pain in  my chest so I had to go to a doctor and it is still there but she gave me something to control my stomach acid which might help, if not I have to go back. It isn't painful but more so annoying.
I had done alot of driving too this week between the kids visits with their dad and I had to court for a ticket I didn't get lol long story but it worked out in my favor which was great, just a misunderstanding about insurance and I didn't know about it until it was already a ticket thanks to the person who was driving not showing it lol ah well it is over now so that is great.
I am trying to stare at my kids as much as possible lately, it seems they grow too fast and I need to stare at them so it stops lol
Like Irelyn, I love that baby walk kids do when they first start walking, I love it LOVE it so I just watch her walk around, I also LOVE the baby babble... sighhhh if I were rich I would have a baby every 5 years I just love them endlessly, I could spend a whole day kissing their faces <3 ... amazing how much love I am capable of for my children but for other people it can be a little hard for me to even like them for long periods of time lol
Ok so I am going to add some pics here of the Giant Cupcake check it out

The week of New Beginnings!

Happy Friday!
Well this week I have been starting to potty train my daughter, it is going pretty good. I think what is making it go well is that she is ready and that makes all the difference.
Last week I had got some blood work done and everything came back good except I have 'mildy high cholesterol' so I am doing some research on how to get that in line. So far I seen that Minute Maid heart wise will be good,grape juice and benecol so I can make those adjustments and of course cut out some of the stuff like ice cream,cakes etc.
So my youngest got a new crib yesterday,she seems to love it. She had a mini crib before and it lasted her a year but she is a big baby so when she rolls over she smacks into the crib. I went online and ordered a really cute crib online that will allow her to use it as a toddler bed in a year or so.
I am getting spring fever, I went to Carters the other day and seen all the spring clothes and got SO excited - I am very ready for spring. I am also very ready for my tax papers to get here so I can file and see if I get anything back, this was a rough year with working then losing the job then working then losing the job, I am not sure I made enough.
Oh and how could I forget, I got my new Phillips sonicare toothbrush, it is the Flexcare line and has the UV Sanitizer with it and I read such great reviews on it. I took a before picture to see if it whitens my teeth like they say it does so in a week I will take another picture and see what happened. I am using Rembrandt whitening mouth wash in addition to the brushing so between the both I should see some change. My teeth are starting to show some staining from coffee and tea.
I will post again next week with a progress report. My teeth are getting sensitive from the mouthwash already but I know it goes away so no big deal.
Ok talk soon

New Year, New Outlook

Well, I am back.
I woke up in a strange way today, I feel like cleaning the Cobb webs off my ass and doing some things.
I am also dealing with some weird feelings, I am single and have been for a while. I generally have this feeling that relationships are over rated and not for everyone. Lately though, I realize the amount of personal friends I have is really kind of low as well. So either those relationships are over rated too or this has to do with me.
I know I am picky, I am picky with romantic relationships as well as  platonic relationships. I just don't like to be around people who I don't really trust or who I feel just don't gel with who I am.  I also have to be honest and say that I tend to be super anti social.
The only relationships I tend to care about or put any time or energy into is the relationships I have with my children. I also don't see anything wrong with that, but I suppose it would be nice to have a friend or two that I actually speak to. People to trust and raise my kids around.
Alot of this comes from the fact that some of the friends I did invest in, turned out to be a waste of time. I feel like friendships (as well as relationships with men) should not be hard, they should come natural and easy.
So anyway, today I decided to start my walking videos again. I am not going to hold myself to a strict schedule because I know that will back fire, soon as I miss a work out I will get down on myself and just dump the whole plan.
Day by day, I hope to restructure my life. Get myself in decent health, straighten out my financial issues and be the best mother, friend and person I can be.
Lets see what 2011 holds for me.