Saturday, December 29, 2012

Ready for a New Year and Hopefully some New Beginnings

Today is the 29th of December and I started my Plexus on or around late October. So it has been about 2 months, when I started I was 203 and today (even after the holidays) I weighed myself this morning and I was down to 188! Mind you, no exercise, definitely no dieting. I expected to gain a little something after how I ate on Christmas and the couple days after but I was shocked to see that I maintained and then lost a pound this morning.
This is terrific, I feel better and have a great amount of energy. I also find myself actually considering stepping it up and adding some exercise since now I got some of that weight off my knees. 
Only bad thing is I can't afford my new shipment. It is about 105 a month and I just don't have it. I spent a little more then I should have during the holidays and I have been out of work. I charged everything so now I don't have anything available anywhere. I am definitely in deep with debt. 
I am hoping to be able to find a job soon, I have interviewed for some things but they pay so little (less then half of what I made at my last job) and they are so low on the totem pole I feel these crappy jobs will bring me back to like when I was 18 and just starting out. I feel like they will be a resume killer and end up defining me, how can I go and find a better position if my last one was something so different. I am just so hesitant to make (another) poor decision that will effect me long term.
I am still toying with the idea of attending a program so I can look in certain fields but my struggle is getting myself in more debt to come out and not find a job because I do not have working experience in these fields or come out and be lucky to get 9 a hour. 
I get kind of disgusted with all of it, my hands are tied because I can only work certain hours since I am the primary care taker of my 3 kids, so it has to be part time and it can't be something that will drag my whole resume and experience down. I don't know where to turn or what to do at this point. I just keep looking around and hope to find something that I can really enjoy. Something part time, something that challenges me somewhat since that is what holds my interest most.
Hopefully I can find a good fit, and plant some roots. 
My main priority is being there for my kids but I understand I need to really bring some income in really soon. I am already behind on things and I had been borrowing from loans and credit cards to pay monthly bills so now that everything is maxed out I have really no where else to go with this. 
Sometimes I want to just pack up and move close to my parents, they would be a great help but it is a little harder finding work up there. 
Well anyway, I will get back on my Plexus slim as soon as possible and hopefully get my stuff together really soon.
Happy New Year to All!!